A letter to my daughter: I've never stopped loving you.
I am here, always, with open arms, and no judgement. My love for you has never wavered, and my greatest hope is to reconnect.
I am here, always, with open arms, and no judgement. My love for you has never wavered, and my greatest hope is to reconnect.
The day you were born was the happiest day of my life. I was obsessed with you, it was the first time I ever understood pure love. I wanted to give you everything I felt I missed growing up. When you were four years old you had 17 stuffed animal dogs, named each one and they all had different voices. It was a marvel to watch, you'd bathe them all in the sink every day. Your favorite was Napoleon and I rescued him more times than I can count. You thought it was hilarious to throw him out the car window. You were my best friend and we were inseparable.
I would do anything in the world for you. There's so much I wish I could say to you face to face. Every night I imagine what that would be. I left your dad to protect us both from harm. I had to leave to save my life and teach you how to be treated. I did my best to carve out a life filled with love and hope, always with you in my thoughts. I know that life's twists and turns have made our journey harder, but my love for you is endless.
As we look forward to the future, I want you to know that I've built a life with love, security, and healing- a place where you will always belong. It hasn't been an easy road, but I've faced my traumas and grown stronger because of them. I've never stopped including you in myheart and everything I do. You have brothers and a sister who are eager to to know you and share in the joy of family. Every night, I pray for the day we can all be together, laughing, talking, and healing as one. Now matter how much time passes, there will always be a place for you in my home and and in my heart. When you're ready, I'll be here to walk this path with you.
Diva queen boss lady. You are my heart!
Our family has had ups and downs but we are fun and we are never angry for long. Laughing is our love language.
Lilli and Judah grew up together. His mom is my best friend and when we were in our 20’s we shared an apartment and gave the kids the room. We called it 2 mommas in a living room and we had lots of dance parties with the kids.
Lilli has the biggest heart and roots for the underdog because of her caring nature. I’m so excited for her to reconnect because we have such a rich history I knew little about. I learned about our Native American roots and discovered our lineage back to the 1600s.
I live in Laguna Beach just one block from our favorite beach she grew up going to. Everything is exactly as it should be and caused us to become the people we are now. But I don’t want to let go of any more days without her love and hugs. The ultimate dream would be to help other people with a story like ours so they can live their best lives because that is the best medicine!
I feel her energy every day and I wish for her to see the vibrant future ahead. We share a heart bond that no force could destroy. We are one! I never stopped loving her and will never stop trying to find her but all my efforts are currently being blocked. My love knows no end.
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